What are you worried about? These are the words I heard tonight at Mass. What are you worried about? I sat there for a moment in silence thinking to myself what am I not worried about? Right after those words came into my mind, the priest states "Jesus does not want you to worry." I paused for a moment, almost in shock. I had never really thought about worry like that. I am one who is consumed with worry. I worry about almost everything. After Ash was born, and we found out she was not healthy, I have never had a day that was not filled with worry. There I was sitting in church, hearing the words "Jesus does not want you to worry." I was not sure what to do with those words. I still am not sure what to do with them. As the homily progressed the priest said, "As you leave here tonight, take your worries and hand them over to the One that can handle them." He then preceded to say, "Don't worry about tomorrow, tomorrow will take of itself."
As I am writing this I am thinking of all the things that consume me. My main worries revolve around Ash and her health. I find myself worried about her getting the care she needs, not getting sick, will she need more surgery, is that medicine a good one, and just being able to grow up and enjoy herself. As I sit here I realize that I do not have control over these worries. It is what it is. The only one who has control over these worries is God Himself. I know this. I just need to learn how to hand it over to Him. Learning is a process and I will learn. I felt something tonight, as if I was being told that it will be O.K., God will take care of it.
Now, do you want to hear something funny? My family and I have not been to church since Christmas Eve due to the severity of Ash's illness. She woke up on New Years Eve very sick. She developed an infection in her hip that went septic. We spent 6 days in the hospital and have been dealing with "new" health issues since. Today, I decided that I needed to go to Mass. I decided this around 4:30 in the afternoon, and Mass started at 4:00 at my home parish. I decided to go to another church because that Mass started at 5:00. Here I was, at a church I normally do not attend and I hear these words, "Jesus does not want you to worry." Was I was sent to this church tonight for a reason? I needed to hear these words. I needed to hear that it is O.K. to hand over my worries to God. He will take care of me and my family. He will provide. What happens is His will. Now, I need to let the controlling side of myself let these worries go. I need to trust in what I have been told tonight. I have to admit, this is going to be a challenge for me. I have decided it is something that I want, and need to work towards.
I do hope that all of you that have worries can do the same. Remember Jesus does not want us to worry.
Blessings to you all,